Decades: how's it going?

My goal is to send one postcard per week to someone in my life who matters to me. I try to write a single (short!) poem on each card. My original draft plan takes ten weeks at a time, chooses one person per week, and I think about that person all week. I write in a notebook, I write multiple drafts of what I think I want to say. It definitely takes lots of drafts to find the heart of the matter, and even once I've sent the poem, I can be plagued with some version of - oh, no, that's not what I wanted to say.

I've even considered sending some of those folks an explanatory letter, either because I've been out of touch with them or because I think the poem, coming out of nowhere, won't make sense. Or even, I assume the bulk of the writing will get obscured by postal cancellation markings and make even less sense.

But there's no getting around the fact that normally, I use too many words. And the size of a postcard means, simply, I can't. So no cheating with additional letters to recipients. I put this blog's address and my instagram handle on each card, with the hope that if someone is confused, they have access to more context.

Here's what I'm discovering so far: as long as I know at the beginning of the week who I'm meditating on, I'm really enjoying the practice of exploring memories of them, of their influence, their wisdom. A postcard is good because I can never really distill what these people mean to me, so whatever I choose to say is at least something, a little murmur of thanks. 

I'm trying to let go of writing "good" poems, and instead just write whatever seems best at the time. This is difficult for me. I'll let you know if it gets easier.

Oh, I've fallen a little behind, but I choose not to worry about it. I'm doing this for myself, to thank others, to take stock. Having a map to complete this a bit at a time helps, but life keeps life-ing, so I choose to catch up when I can, as long as I still get some thinking time about each person. 

How's it going? It makes me feel lucky, thinking about all of you, all the people I'm lucky enough to know and spend time with and be taught by. And it reminds me to be a person who is grateful and delighted by you all. Thanks, everyone.