Perversely, in the midst of the awesome project, where I'm working amongst people who are clearly at the top if their game, I feel the most talentless.
And now, on our day off, there's an audition. And I'm making myself go. Making myself. As in, I must go. Because it is at least 70% likely that I will not be good enough to catch their attention. But if I don't go, I absolutely won't.
But today, it's hard. I just...fine. I won't procrastinate going by writing this. I'll just go and report back later if I bombed. Or even got in. Ugh.
Hello, rejection, remember me? I know, I know, you've been saving a spot for me. Be right there.
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Well, that could have gone better. For once, I'm being completely straight and honest (not self-pitying or falsely modest) when I say, I just plain wasn't good enough tonight. I wouldn't cast me. Sometimes I do pretty well. This was not one of those times. I feel out of practice.
To say the least.
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